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Archive for September, 2005
09.30.2005 | new layout
yeah, so i got in the mood to make a new layout last night. I’m trying to fix up the coding of this site, cuz it’s really sloppy. You’re probably going to find lots of broken links everywhere and stuff, just bear with me because i don’t always have time every day to work on it. For now, the layout should be working just fine and dandy…well, at least the index page. i haven’t gotten to the subpages yet, so they might still be in the old layout. Hopefully this weekend i’ll have some time to tweak.
I finished my homework for comp sci already. I uploaded it to this server so that i could show people that didn’t have access to the cornell sites…take a looksey if u want. it’s nothing spectacular, just a color changer so that we could learn some PHP. there should be some more complicated stuff coming in the future, but i’m pretty pleased with this. i enjoy the layout lol. here.
so what else is new?? 6 days til fall break, 7 til my birthday. I think i’m getting cuTV for my bday - which will be AWESOME cuz then i can watch my fave TV shows that i can’t get on DC++ (ie. extreme makeover home edition and everwood). What else? umm…I’m starting to force myself to study harder. It’s not that i’m not getting good grades, but i realized that this is my LAST opportunity to learn the things i’m learning, so if i don’t take advantage of it now and learn all I can from it, then i’m just wasting my time and money. That being said, did almost all of my HW REALLY early yesterday, so i had the whole night free to myself (which is why i made a new layout) and then, before i went to sleep, just so i didn’t feel like i was wasting my night away on non-school work, I reviewed like 200 pages of my spanish text book and highlighted and stuff so that i can make sure that i’m getting everything out of that class that i can. i’m determined to be fluent in spanish by the end of this year (and at the rate i’m going, and the quality teaching that i’ve been getting, it could happen. according to the course description, by the end of the spanish class that i’m going to take next semester, i’ll be basically fluent. so coolbeans to that.
…so yeah i wrote this blog last night and i just found out that i didn’t submit it. i don’t remember waht i wanted to talk about…so i’ll just post this as is. lol
thanks for visiting. thanks for commenting.
ohh…and check out my new little “random quote” script @ the bottom of the left column. i wrote it myself!!
…until next time.
09.22.2005 | wow…
today has been a day, let me tell you.
probably one of the most intangibly productive days of my life.
the most important detail of the day is: i’ve decided on my major. I’m going to major in Information Sciences more here. it’s amazing. it’s everything i could want from a major. it involves computers, personal interaction, it’s a science, and it’s broad. it’s perfect. I’d been considering it for a few weeks now, but after speaking to a professor (more on that later) about it, i’m convinced it’s right for me. He told me of this student he knew who majored in infosci a few years ago and now works for Google in their marketing department. that is the PERFECT job for me. really…i couldn’t think of anything more suiting.
I realized today…well, i guess i always knew, but i finally understand and have grasped the fact that i have so much going for me by going to Cornell. I was sitting in the lounge of the hotel (yes, we have a hotel on campus) waiting to meet my mentor (more on that later also) and today happened to be the Career Fair. SO… i was sitting in the lobby waiting and walking in and out are all of these recruiters that had been @ the fair. there were people there from such big companies that i felt truly overwhelmed! There were people from Intel, L’Oreal, Nike, Morgan Stanley, any big name imaginable walking in and out prepared to offer people jobs. how nuts is that?! That’s going to be me in a few years, walking around that fair, waiting for one of those recruiters to stop me and say “hey..wanna come work for us?”. the thought of it just freaks me out!
so onto the other part of the day. like i said, i was waiting for my mentor. well, see, i have a mentor. i got matched with her thru some program here and we spoke a few times before the end of last school year and over the summer on the phone and thru emails, but, because i moved, we never got the chance to meet (she works in NYC). So she happened to be on campus today because she had to do some sort of presentation for the Johnson School. So we met up and talked about random stuff…nothing too productive. She wanted to introduce me to her favorite professor whom she planned to meet just after our meeting. He’s a professor of communications here. so we met and we talked for a bit and he told me a LOT of stuff about infosci that i had really been wondering about. mainly: what kind of job does someone with an infosci major get? he mostly answered that question for me, thankfully. and the funny thing is - i have a class with his son! he’s a junior and we have the same intro to web programming class. small world, huh?
so yeah…that wasn’t really all there was to my productive day, but that was definitely the most important part. I also signed up to be a campus host for CUimage. basically, i’m allowed to host HS students who come here to visit the campus and stuff. it’s the same program that i got to visit cornell thru this time last year. (the students are actually coming this weekend! it’s amazing how fast this year flew!)…and what else did i do? i went to office hours, a first for me. i had to check something out with my webdesign grade. stupid w3 validator didn’t do my site justice! so hopefully that’ll be fixed.
anddd…what else??? i think that’s about it basically. i was in such a good mood when i got back from my meeting with my mentor that i went straight to my HW. i wrote my spanish essay, i started my webdesign HW that’s not due til sunday…i was on a roll! (i don’t know what got into me!!)
lol i think that’s about it? I have a prelim next week in calc. that should be interesting. i hafta go to like a study group or something this week/weekend to get ready for that cuz i dunno if i’m totally on par yet. only 15 more days til i get to go home for fall break. well, maybe 14 now that today’s over?
so yeah…that’s it…or that’s all i can think of @ the moment…and i don’t have my glasses on so things are starting to get blurry lol.
thanks for visiting. thanks for reading. until next time…
09.06.2005 | adjusting
so today was the 1st day of school @ my old high school. it’s so strange that i’m not there. it’s weird to hear that everything is still going on as it used to. it’s actually pretty upsetting. i miss it a LOT. that school my was my home away from home. i lived and breathed BHS, and now it’s all just in the past. All of my old positions have been filled, other people are making my speeches, my announcements, playing my positions, it’s just so unnerving that someone can be replaced so easily. I know that probably sounds kind of selfish. they never really were MY positions, i was simply filling them for the year, but still, i made them waht they are today.
i guess it’s good to think that i left somewhat of a legacy when i moved on, but still, i’d rather still be living it rather than leaving it behind. This time last year i was getting ready to make my first announcements for the Morning Announcement Crew, getting ready for my 1st practice of the year as the Captain of the volleyball team, getting ready for my first day as President of the school, and now here i am, sitting in my dorm room, talking to my mom online, and having her tell me how all of that is being done by someone else.
I dunno, I guess that now with the start of what would have been another year of school, I realize how far behind it all is. I’m past it all. i’ve already been in school for over 2 weeks. Reality is finally hitting i guess: i’m not going back to high school. As much as i wish i could, it’s not going to happen.
Don’t get me wrong, i love it here, but it’s just not the same. I owned BHS, i owned Bayonne. as pompous as it sounds, it’s the truth. Now i have neither. I no longer live in Bayonne, i no longer go to BHS. I’m just a little fish in a big pond now with no place to go back to as my “home”. Sure, there’s pt. pleasant, but i don’t know anyone there. what’s the fun in that? ooo let me go home for the holidays and sit in my room cuz i don’t know anyone around me?! that sucks! I want to go back to bayonne so much. i miss my home, i miss my friends, i miss my school, everything.
things will never be the same again. ever. as much as i want bayonne to be a part of my life, it won’t be. i’m not even a resident of the town anymore!
i guess what i’m realizing is that i just miss the comfort of being on top. Here i am, a groundling, really, searching for a way back up to where i previously stood. It stinks being @ the bottom again. even when i got to high school i was really never @ the bottom. i was somewhere in the middle, just waiting for the years to pass so i can take my spot @ the top. i’m not the one outstanding person here, i’m just another one of the thousands of outstanding people. it stinks really, but it’s also great because it’s a challenge. i just can’t see the path to greatness yet. i suppose i just need to give it some time, after all, i’ve only been here for 2 weeks…if i COULD see the light to the top, that’d be pretty unusual.
so now i’m just blabbering…
i think now would be a good time to change topics before i go off on another tangent or let my thought process do another 180.
my classes are pretty good so far. i’m taking Spanish 123 (continuing spanish), Math 111 (calc 1), Freshman Writing Seminar (shakespeare), COM S 130 (intro to web design and programming), and PE 127 (sailing). all of my profs are cool, and the classes seem pretty easy so far (except for calc, but that’s a given considering my background). i, surprisingly, have very little HW, but i’m not complaining @ alll!!! lol
other than that, things are going pretty well i guess. my bday is in a month from thursday, which is kind of exciting (19…holy crap!). and i get to go home for fall break in about a month too!
that’s about it i think? i suppose i should get going on some HW… thanks for reading my vent if u did.
until next time…